Out with the Old, In with the New

It's has been ages since I touched my blog. Have been so busy since I have finally resigned from my company and moving on to a new beginning on Monday. It's fantastic. These few days have been my worse, but praying after today, the worse will be long over and I can finally move on in peace. I didn't know that leaving this place would be such a mess, and only thanx by one small thing and making it huge. Ish.

Luckily I had met up with a friend on the following day after I resigned. She cheered me up a bit by doing a makeover for me. Just love what she had did for me, she's very good with makeup eyeshadow blending. Definitely wanna ask her help me next time if I have any function, she even said to book in advanced! That's really sweet of her since she's always playing with makeup almost everyday.

She mixed 2 purple shades on me, and the best part? She actually helped me to clean up my eyebrows! Well have been rather tied up lately that I was long due for threading as my brows were getting out of shape. Love what she's done for me.

Today I really made terrible mistakes. I'm hoping no more of this. Why, why can't I get better? I'm tired of doing this and haven't been very fair. I've been selfish and not think of others that worry. Will work my part out, as I realized it today. Not the usual wake up calls I get. This time, it really hurts and it hit me straight in the face. I seem to feel pain in the chest, both knees, both arm,s both wrists and few bruises. Whatever  I do, it hurts, here and there at any position. My ears are still numb, feel discomfort when hearing...

How careless of me...I must really wake up.

I even have one on the finger, that I might later put on a plaster as I found a small skin missing and it hurts under running water. There's small marks on my skin too. Ish, just cos of one stupid thing, I spoiled everything.

It is true. Shouldn't have even bother about it as I have left. Let it all go and just go with the flow...

I dozed off when writing this in the a.m. Arm and wrists are more painful...chest too. Time to use the heat lotion and jellys. Aihhh...why do I go spoil everything? I went overboard...and even injuring not only myself.

Wake up Jane. And smell the coffee. 

I don't get anything by continuing with this. Besides, I have already moved on. Today planning to write a long email, and letting them know the truth. That small thing? I hope this email will let them see the true colours and as long as i have been servicing, its not my problem. Taking everything into your own hands doesn't mean you own the company. I have my end, you have yours.

Finally have written an email to calm myself down. Will do the final touches and send it out. I believe things will be better after this has been done. Praying for the best weekend for him and for me. 

I miss you deeply even without you knowing it.